what is this feeling?

Do you also feel a sudden loneliness?or the feeling of being alone it seems you are trapped to a room that no one can help you sometimes I do, but what does i really feel?is this the sign of boredom or a sign of my insanity?. Lot of questions trigger on my mind and i can't find the answer until i realize i am totally helpless, why i am holding on if i know at the end no one can really help me that no one really cares, will they still remember me if i will be gone or all alone with my disappearance is also a forgotten me.

To all my Orkut Friends, Mommies and Sisters

Not everyday i can tell you i love you
Not everyday i can be at your side
Not everyday i can talk to you
Not everyday i can let you feel how much i care
Not everyday i can comfort you
Not everyday i can make you smile
Not everyday i can say thank you for coming into my life
But everyday and forever you will always be in my heart.

And know i have the guts to say "Thank you and I Love you!"

Thank you!for being part of my life
I love you for making me special

CATCH013

i thought it was over

I thought the feeling is not there anymore, i hate to feel this because i am not in the position to feel it. I thought time can heal it's been a year but why there is sudden feeling of pain?

I read something that makes my heart beat so fast, i felt theres some pin inside me, I still keep on asking on myself what went wrong? Did i do something that makes him away from me? I am not asking for more just a simple friendship will makes me smile even not for a life time.

Maybe we are not really destined to each other even to be just a mere friends.

feel what's inside me

Give me a chance to say I LOVE YOU

Let me show that I really do

I don't want to give up on you

That's why I keep on holding

Today I want to hold you tight

Even you want to say goodbye

Reuniting with you is the best thing that I can do

So give me a chance to be with you......


Love has no boundaries
It's not about how far or how near
It's not about traditions and beliefs
It's all about two hearts that beat us one
Hearts that can make people fall in love no matter what?
It doesn't matter who you are or whatever you have
What matter is you will fight till the end.

Stories Behind My Names

Year 1985 when my parents decided to give me a name RUSSIEL ,Yes!that's my real name it was my mama's idea to give me that name because she loves the song FROM RUSSIA WITH LOVE(even i don't look like a russian),in french my name means "RED FOX"(thanks god i don't roar during full moon lolzzzz....)

The next day, one of my Auntie asked “what will be her nickname?”… Guess what??? Another auntie shouted “let's call her HONEY”. My third auntie commented, No it can't be.. Coz everyone will call her HONEY (frowns*). I don't
know what happened along the way… all I’ve known is I grown up with everybody calling me HONEY.

Who is Catch?

Mid of Year 2007, when a friend invited me to have an Orkut account. At that time, I am using a DP name “CATCH ME IM FALLING FOR YOU”… Then I met La, one of my Orkut sisters…. Well, she’s the one who gave me that name in which according to her is… it sounds cute and unique… from then on… everybody calls me Catch…. which I now find cute too… hehehe........